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POST SIX, The Aftermath: Well, This Sucks!

My experience with how my life has carried on after my Bruv’s death is anything but passable. I had a thriving, successful real estate business in Ontario, prior to May 11, 2018. Upon arriving back to Ontario from Steven’s bedside around June 1, I listed a house the very next day and sold a few and listed a couple more over the three months that followed. I literally can not remember a single event from June to September, really. There I was, walking around conducting business in a complete and utter fog. It was as though my head was stuffed with cotton batten, but I was still able to drive, answer questions and see with my eyes. I was numb, except for the tireless throb of sorrow and grief.  My Dad died three weeks after my Bruv died and I flew out to Edmonton for a week to be there with him in his last days. FUCK ME. As I write this, I feel tremendous sorrow and unbridled anger at the both of them for fucking leaving me…still. It’s March… why do I still feel this way? An...